Okay, so I decided to do this because I am afraid that time will come and I might not be able to say thank you to those people I love and adore. Since, we don't hold our life in our hands... I am going to start with my parents. By the way, I totally prefer using my blog then writing 'cause I hate writing, makes my left thumb muscle cramps.
To Mama,
Ma, first of all... I would like to say thank you for everything you've done for me. You've been holding me in your body for nine months, feeding me since I was inside your body, you'd do anything for me. Then, when you first saw me, you love me. Without doubts, you know me, you dont have to know my name cause you already know even before I was born, you know my age, you never forget. You are always there for me, you'd do anything for me. Ma, you're the best. Thank you for watching my every move when I was a baby, thank you for singing for me so I could sleep when I was a baby, thank you fo rholding me so gently, carefully and full of love when I was a baby, thank you for being my eyes, my ears, my feets, my everything when I was a baby, thank you for all the things you taught me, thank you for giving me all that you have, thank you for being super duper worried about me when I'm sick and also for staying up late just to take care of me, thank you for never giving up on me when I was being stubborn, selfish and sometimes rude. I've changed since what ha happened between us ma. I mean, when I was humiliating you.. I'm so sorry. Thank you for forgiving me, that day was one the most scariest day of my life. Thank you for fighting and not giving up your life for us, thank you for all the cookings, the prayers, thank you ma for all the clothes, all the advices, thank you for everything ma. I cannot thank you enough, because you've done a lot. Too much than what should... I love you mama... I will never forget you. You know that your health and your happiness are much more important than mine... And yes, I know.. my happiness and health are much more important to you than your health, if we're magnets ma, we're not gonna attract to each other. hahaha. But ma, no worries. I'd do anything so we'd forver be together. Though together may not exist in this world, it will in the after life. Ma, I will never ever exchange you. I am thankful anf greatful and blessed to much, to have you as a mother, a best friend, a shopping partner and as a sister. I love you ma... I love you so so much. Thank you for all those sleepless nights, for everything. If I mention it all here, 10 pages will never be anough. Ma, sorry, for all my wrongdoings towards you. I love you ma. I promise, I will never deny you as my mother infront of whatever or whoever. You are my one and only, my first love... I love you mama. Umiiyak ako ngayon ma. Ma, sana, mahaba ang buhay mo ma. Sana palage kang healthy. Ma, sana wala ka ng sakit. Sana, hndi na mangyayari yung kailangan kang operahan. It hurts me to see na nahihirapan ka ma. It hurts me to see na nasasaktan ka. Ayaw ko yung lumuluha ka, ayaw ko yung umiiyak ka. Ma, sorry ha ma, alam kong minsan napapaiyak kita. Nung dati dati tapos nung nag away ko ni papa. Pinagsisisihan ko yun ma, umiiyak ako gabi gabi nagdadasal na sana God will forgive me and sana you'll forgive me. I love you mama. Kung halimbawa, mawala man ako, *Nauzubillah* just remember ma, you'l forever be in my heart. Kahit di nayan tumitibok sa sandali wala na akong bukas, mamahalin parin kita ma. Maniwala ka ma, kahit the heart stops beating, it can still love. I love you mama. I miss you, kahit nakikita kita palage, namimiss parin kita. Ayaw kong mawala ka, kaya minsan pinagdadasal ko na lang na sana ako na lang mauna. Pero ma, pag ako naman nauna, ikaw naman mahihirapan. Kaya ma ipromise mo sa akin, kung ako ang mauna, wag kang masyadong malungkot. Magiging okay lang ako. Ha ma? I love you. And that love will never change. Thank you mama for everything.
To Babah, (my dad)
Pa, thank you for everything too pa. Thank you for helping mom in making me, hahaha... thank you for being there when mama was giving birth to me, thank you for always supporting me in everything I do, thank you for everything you've odne for me, thank you for working night and day just so you could provide for me and mama, thank you for giving me anything I want *I am a spoiled brat*, thank you for everything pa. Thank you for giving me the strength to face life, thank you for showing me and leading me to the right way. Thank you praying for me, thank you for not giving up on me and for not giving up on your life. Thank you for giving me hope that I might have another tomorrow. Thank you for teaching me all I need to know about Islam, thank you for teaching all I need to know about humans, animals, natures, thank you for everything pa. Thank you for helping mom in feeding me, taking me to the doctor when I'm sick, driving me around eventhough you're tired, thank you for all the hard works, thank you for giving me the reason to live, thank you for showing me I shouldnt give up only because of sarcasms or whatever it is that people says about me, thank you for teaching me not to do bad things to people and for not getting back at them when they do bad things to me, thank you for being my hero, my builder, my everything pa. You are the bestest dad in the universe. I am sorry for all my wrongdoings towards you. Sana naman pa, you'd listen to me even once. This December, pleas epa, magpa check up ka rin, kasi alam mo naman na may bukol ka sa likod mo on the right, dad please, I know to you my health is important, pero tong sakit ko sa ulo, it's nothing compares to yours. Bukol yan pa, we shouldnt let it pass by na parang wala lang, I wouldnt do my check up if you dont do yours. I'm willing to risk my life basta sa inyo, lalo't na alam ko may sakit kayo pa. And pa, I know, you have 3 other kids from your ex wife, I understand that you also have responsibilities for them. It's okay pa, I understand. Pero sana, they'd understand na, hindi lahat ng hinihingi nila maibibigay mo kaagad, they should know that money is not easy to get, they dont just grow on trees or caught like fishes on the sea... Anyways pa, thank you for giving me everything I want, wether it's big money or small money, I just cant thank you enough pa. I dont know how, sometimes, I feel ashamed na, cause I've asked too much. But still, you never complain. You give as long as you can. Pa, thank you for that. Thank you for everything. :') Sana naman din pa, hindi na mangyayari yung nangyari dati na nagka ulser ka, you fainted on the emergency room sa hospital in the toilet, dad, I was so afraid. Wala ngang operation nangyari, but your life was on the line pa. Mabigat na mabigat yung nangyari nun. You colapsed then you fianted, you told us you felt death during that time, you felt cold and everything was so quite. Then mom shouted Allahu Akhbar 3 times, you awakened. Pa, I wasn't there during that time, I was shocked to see blood all ove rmom's lap wwhen she got home. I asked then mom told me you collapsed and you had blood all over you, pa I was so scared. I went with mom to the hospital, I saw you on the bed at the hospital, you slept there for one week, from Sunday to the next Sunday. I am so greatful you are safe and now your still alive. I don't know what life will be without you or mom. Dad, nothing scares me but losing you and mom. Life would be meaningless without you both or without my siblings. So, I thank you for fighting, thank you for believing. I love you pa. I love you so so much. Grabe nakakaiyak tong ganito, dad, I want you to know that I'll never hate you. Never in my life will that happen, I know you and mom went through a lot, but who could blame you, nobodys perfect. At least now you've changed... I am so proud of you pa. And pa, I want you to know that I will never stop loving you and respecting you as my father, my best friend, my jokular awesome dad and my brother even if my heart stops beating. I will forever know you as my dad. Thank you papa for everything. I miss you, I rmeember all those things you did. You went home in the morning then back to work again, you barely sleep. Maybe only 3 to 4 hours then back to work again. Pa, macbook pro 17'' would be the last thing I'd ask this year. Hahaha, hindi joke lang. But it's the most expensive thing I ever asked you for, yet you still bought it for me.... Pa, thank you for texting me, my siblings and mom ''I love you all'' everytime. It means a lot to us. Thank you for loving us more than your life. We love you more too pa. :')
Ma, Pa,...
I am who I am because of you, you raised me as a good child, a respectful lady, a beautiful and elegant female and most of all an intelegence person. Everyday, you guys gives me inspiration. The reason why I am fighting, living life and believing in tomorrow. Thank you ma, pa for everything. I love you all so so so so much. Allah knows how much. I will never get tired of saying I love you, I miss you, I need you, you guys are my first love, you guys are my everything. I will never stop saying all those things because it's true. Love Love Love. <3 <3 <3
Truly yours,
your daughter, Jessica or Dayat
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