My last bf. Okay, I only have 5 ex bfs. Such a small number. Okay, so, we met with the help of my bff Sabrina. He's actually Sabrina's uncle. He's 17 while I was 15. He texted me on my birthday, he got my number from Sabrina. He saw a photo of me then he liked me.
We became a couple after a few months, then we broke up. I dont remember why. But then he aske dme if he oculd have another chance. I gave him another chance.
And the story goes on... there was a little bit of magic. More like a sprinkle of magic. Last year, I studied so hard. Too much, that I almost didnt had any time for him at all. I barely text him, I dont really talk to him on facebook. All I had in my hands were books, pens, papers and stuffs. I studied so hard 'cause it was the mock exam month.
I know he understands that. Then, when I was at the beach with my family. I texted him, said I missed him and stuffs. I loved him by the way. It wasnt a little bit. It was a lot. So the story, he replied. He was so happy but he brought up the story that I barely text him or call him and all that stuffs. I was mad eventhough I knew it was my fault. I thought he understood, I mean he does but I guess I was too much.
Communication is very important in a relationship. Okay. So, he was like so mad. We had our first fight. In any relationship I've had, it was all peaceful until my relationship with Zirul. That's his name. Okay so. Our story is bitter and sweet.
When we met, we were chatting, we were joking around and stuffs. Then when we were together for the first time, he asked Sabrina to bring me a gift from him, he gave me a gift, I didnt gave him anything, which was mean of me. But he said my love is enough for him, okay so he gave me a bracelet. Which I wear everyday at school, sometimes I take it off and put it in my pocket cause it's the school rules. I'd sleep with it every night. Then we broke up, I didnt gave it back. I kept it.
We broke up because we lost contact about a couple of days. Then we went back together again, he called me. It was our first call. He sounded so sweet. He didnt talked a lot. We laughed a lot actually. Then I asked why'd he call, he said that he just wants to hear my voice. Which was so sweet of him. I feel in love with him more than ever. And then, when his parents took his phone because he was sitting for his big exam, he borrowed his dad's cellphone and called me. He made a way just to call me. And I loved that. I love how he could make me lose my mind. Forget about the things bothering me..
Then we broke up 'cause I was too busy to actually have a time for him. I loved him more after the big break up. But, he moved on. I realized that, I'm not ready for a new relationship cause I still loved him. He was the best thing that had ever happened to me. We almost went to 1 year but we broke up.
I dont know, maybe he is the one for me but maybe not... I cried when we broke up but I still didnt miss any meals cause my parents would notice. They know me.
So, we broke up. Then after a month, we met, he went to my house with Sabrina. Then, I told him that I was still inlove with him but he said nothing. It was so painful. After that, I've moved on. It took me a long time to move on. But I've let go of that.
I realized after, that I am not ready for any relationship at all. Will blog about that later. The reason why.
Well, that is all. xoxo
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